You try to bond with, love, or at least strive for acceptance with some people. But it seems impossible to get beyond a certain point with them. Then one day, you realize that the only reason you have to continue trying is to keep alive the notion that with perseverance you will eventually succeed.
It may be necessary to protect yourself from investing more time because your spirit is at stake in these situations. It almost feels like war, the relentless discussion without end, disguised as intelligent discourse…you’re just not getting it. But why not? You’re using everything at your disposal; being as honest, open, and true as you can possibly be. You’ve been invited to the party but you are the only one there.
You realize the need to take care of yourself, to take the things that you offer from a situation that seems only to reject or belittle your every attempt.
Family is fertile ground for this pointless excursion to nowhere. It is here where it is most difficult to discern the machinations, because surely love exists and isn’t that what we are hoping to experience and isn’t this the place where we want it most? But it can be a minefield of deception that may take years to realize. And that may be all there is to that!
Alas, the classic move is when much later, you are confronted with the person, seeking your attention now. Where have you been after all…rather demanding as a matter of fact, perhaps there is a degree of anger for you’ve given up the pursuit of their approval. This is where you get to say a few choose words if you wish. But as valid as that may seem, you feel little inclination in that direction. Geez…
“Dear Lord, Make me a bird so I can fly far, far far away from here.”
Jenny from “Forrest Gump”
Nevertheless, be love and enjoy the beauty of the day, everyday…create something!